my heart fails within me

i feel incredibly weak. it's that sinking feeling deep in the pit of my stomach that keeps falling and falling to the point of nausea and exhaustion. this past week i've really taken on more than i can handle in nearly every aspect of my life and this feeling is somewhat of an eye-opener for me. i am weak. i am too weak and too insufficient to control all the aspects of my life that i am constantly juggling to feel "balanced". rather than balancing myself out and feeling well managed, i am burdened and exhausted. i've gotten myself in so deep that for every step i've tried to take this week, i've found myself two steps back from where i started. all of this stems from failing to give the One who really matters the time of day...the One who can actually provide balance and perspective...the One who has strength, wisdom, and love enough to cover any amount of my weakness, foolishness, and pettiness such that I can be whole and healthy. the One who i forgot was God.

God, please forgive me...i've busied myself, kept my head down, and run so far that i no longer have my bearings. i'm hopelessly lost and i need Your guidance. i want to honor You with my actions and my words, and i know i haven't. please take me and make me whole. please continue to mold me into a man after Your heart. my life is yours. i love you. amen. i feel incredibly weak. it's that sinking feeling deep in the pit of my stomach that keeps falling and falling to the point of nausea and exhaustion. this past week i've really taken on more than i can handle in nearly every aspect of my life and this feeling is somewhat of an eye-opener for me. i am weak. i am too weak and too insufficient to control all the aspects of my life that i am constantly juggling to feel "balanced". rather than balancing myself out and feeling well managed, i am burdened and exhausted. i've gotten myself in so deep that for every step i've tried to take this week, i've found myself two steps back from where i started. all of this stems from failing to give the One who really matters the time of day...the One who can actually provide balance and perspective...the One who has strength, wisdom, and love enough to cover any amount of my weakness, foolishness, and pettiness such that I can be whole and healthy. the One who i forgot was God.

God, please forgive me...i've busied myself, kept my head down, and run so far that i no longer have my bearings. i'm hopelessly lost and i need Your guidance. i want to honor You with my actions and my words, and i know i haven't. please take me and make me whole. please continue to mold me into a man after Your heart. my life is yours. i love you. amen.