transition

i've been thinking a lot about the transitions that i've gone through in my life to date, and more specifically, the transition that i'm passing through right now. it's actually a little bit overwhelming if i try to sit back and digest it all at one moment. there have been so many different kinds of transitions in my life, many of them simultaneous, overlapping, ebbing and flowing at various intensities, that reflecting on all this really moves me past the scope of my understanding as i look at the man i've become today.

for instance, there are the locational transitions...living in danville, moving to denver, moving to malibu, moving to florence, moving back to malibu, and finally landing back in the bay area; each transition with its own set of challenges and joys.

there is also the physical transition from childhood to adulthood. each stage has made its own unique mark on my life: my the pure joy of my youth, the seemingly "tortured" moments of my pre-adolescence which i would later find was quite wonderful and blessed, the awkwardness and confusion of adolescence, the exhilaration of reaching young adulthood, and the excited sense of content, assurance, and hope i feel as i step forward into the unknown as an adult.

oh and there are so many other transitions...the intellectual transition from pre-school to institutions of higher education and beyond...the spiritual transition from the faith of my parents to a dynamic relationship with the Lord...the relational transition as friends have come, gone, or continue to stay...i've really only touched on some of the most basic transitions, but i believe these are the most essential...you can weave the story of one's whole life when you layer these transitions upon each other, and if you pick up nearly every book, it is likely a story of transition and change.

i write this now because i want to reflect and slow down. i am now betrothed to mallory, and i think it almost goes without saying that behind my journey with the Lord, this is one of the most important periods of transition in my whole life. can i really say that though? who would i be today if not for every little transition, every change, every movement, every friend, every hardship, every loss, every triumph, every joy? the truth of the matter is that life is all one transition, one movement, moving in the same direction, never ceasing, never slowing...i find myself so buried in the minutia of the day that i've almost lost the beauty of this grand movement. imagine...the whole world, every person, moving, changing, coming, going, passing through, staying (but only for a while), and one day, at the end of our time, we meet the One who knew us, who loved us, who walked with us, who spoke to us, and who held my hand and guided my step through every change along the way.

God, to YOU be all the glory as i wake and sleep each day. please guide my steps as I pass through this life. i want to live every day to the fullest and richest, not in fear of transition, but loving the people and embracing the opportunities you've put in my life now. i love you with all my heart. i've been thinking a lot about the transitions that i've gone through in my life to date, and more specifically, the transition that i'm passing through right now. it's actually a little bit overwhelming if i try to sit back and digest it all at one moment. there have been so many different kinds of transitions in my life, many of them simultaneous, overlapping, ebbing and flowing at various intensities, that reflecting on all this really moves me past the scope of my understanding as i look at the man i've become today.

for instance, there are the locational transitions...living in danville, moving to denver, moving to malibu, moving to florence, moving back to malibu, and finally landing back in the bay area; each transition with its own set of challenges and joys.

there is also the physical transition from childhood to adulthood. each stage has made its own unique mark on my life: my the pure joy of my youth, the seemingly "tortured" moments of my pre-adolescence which i would later find was quite wonderful and blessed, the awkwardness and confusion of adolescence, the exhilaration of reaching young adulthood, and the excited sense of content, assurance, and hope i feel as i step forward into the unknown as an adult.

oh and there are so many other transitions...the intellectual transition from pre-school to institutions of higher education and beyond...the spiritual transition from the faith of my parents to a dynamic relationship with the Lord...the relational transition as friends have come, gone, or continue to stay...i've really only touched on some of the most basic transitions, but i believe these are the most essential...you can weave the story of one's whole life when you layer these transitions upon each other, and if you pick up nearly every book, it is likely a story of transition and change.

i write this now because i want to reflect and slow down. i am now betrothed to mallory, and i think it almost goes without saying that behind my journey with the Lord, this is one of the most important periods of transition in my whole life. can i really say that though? who would i be today if not for every little transition, every change, every movement, every friend, every hardship, every loss, every triumph, every joy? the truth of the matter is that life is all one transition, one movement, moving in the same direction, never ceasing, never slowing...i find myself so buried in the minutia of the day that i've almost lost the beauty of this grand movement. imagine...the whole world, every person, moving, changing, coming, going, passing through, staying (but only for a while), and one day, at the end of our time, we meet the One who knew us, who loved us, who walked with us, who spoke to us, and who held my hand and guided my step through every change along the way.

God, to YOU be all the glory as i wake and sleep each day. please guide my steps as I pass through this life. i want to live every day to the fullest and richest, not in fear of transition, but loving the people and embracing the opportunities you've put in my life now. i love you with all my heart.